What Do I Really See?

I see a being with many imperfections,
Someone who always needs to change.
I am like a puzzle with missing pieces,
Who is not completely put together.

No matter what I do with my life,
What I do is never enough for me.
Even though I work hard and study,
I often feel I could be doing more.

I could help others in need sometime,
Pay someone who is elderly or sick a visit.
I could take more classes to get smarter,
I feel like I often act in my life as a moron.

Why do I accept others for who they are,
While I cannot accept who I am inside?
I constantly push myself to look prettier,
Be nicer, work harder, and do better.

For myself I accept nothing but perfection,
While I treat everyone else as a human being.
I act as if I don't deserve to be simply be human,
I must be something more to be good enough.

While secretly I know that I cannot be perfect,
A part of me holds hope that someday I will be.
I need to let go of these unrealistic expectations,
So I can accept myself and fully love myself again.

The Light

As I pass around the curvy bend,
I see a bright, yellow beam of light.
A visible aura of brightness is there,
For some reason this light is here now.

Here to show me many wonders,
and the beauty that exists in my life.
That one exists and cares about me,
As much as anyone else on this earth.

This light is warm and radiates,
Gently from the sky into my skin.
As I continue to walk along the path,
The bright light gets more intense.

I feel as if someone is here with me,
Even though I am walking alone.
As I come to a clearing with no trees,
I stop and kneel to pray in the light.

The dark clouds present in my soul,
Floated out of my body as I prayed.
The light of the sun filtered into me,
And filled my heart with pure joy.

My being is being showered with love,
The light is more than the shining sun.
This light is a sign of something more,
More than what my eyes can ever see.

Even when I am stuck in the darkness,
Someone still cares for me and loves me.
There is more to life than what I can see,
Someone created this earth for us all.

Now I am filled with this bright light,
And I am ready to share this delight.
Ready to go forth and spread my joy,
To be that light to others around me.

Together Forever Does Not Always Happen

Green represents jealousey and envy they say,
Red represents great love, passion, and sex,
What color is for those who have no one?

Is it blue, which is depression and sadness?
Is it black, the color of complete darkness?
You could say lack of love is black and blue.

Not having someone to love and care for,
That could cause a deep depression I guess,
It could make the whole world seem dark.

I guess romance is often overrated by many,
You hear more about people's hearts breaking,
Infidelity, and divorce than of long lasting love.

In fact half of people who marry here divorce,
At least half, maybe more so love is hard for us,
Finding a true love can almost seem unrealistic.

Depression and darkness loom from a love lost,
Seems to be more realistic than together forever,
Yet we all hope for that each time we find someone.

Maybe one we will find prince charming or a princess,
Likely though we will think we have them and won't,
We will find ourselves chasing "love" for many years.

We think we can't be alone, because we will feel lonely,
We want someone to hold and to keep us company,
We want to be told we are ok just the way we are.

In actuality, we will end up hating "love" eventually,
Because it has brought us excrutiating pain everytime,
And the happiness it caused was too short, not forever. ♥