Goodbye Depression

Depression, oh I despite you. You take away my desire to leave the house. You try to put me under a spell of laziness involving mindless television and solitary confinement. When you are around, I feel the need to be alone constantly. You tell me to stay away from other people and to just shut myself away from the world. My computer and my television is all I need according to you.

You also want me to medicate myself, so that I forget that I am feeling down. You give me ideas to drink up, smoke up, harm myself, and to either eat whatever I feel like eating or severely restrict my eating to gain control of myself and my life. You toy with my mind and with my addictive personality tendencies in order to gain control of me. In the past I would listen to you and would turn to some or all of these things so that I could cope with my life. Your dark cloud of hazy judgement sounds great at the time, but in retrospect your "wisdom" is a recipe for disaster.

This time, I am doing things a little bit differently. I am forcing myself to deal with how I feel. I am making myself stay active both physically and socially. I will not isolate myself from loved ones and close myself off from the world. Also, I am not going to listen to you and use substances or disordered eating patterns as a drug. I am now stronger than that and can fight you. I am still going strong and will get help if you continue to hang around me. I will not let life or the cold weather destroy me. I will not let you take over me and fall for your lies again. This time I am going to stay healthy in all aspects of my life. I am done letting you take over me.I am ready to get rid of my depressive state in any way I can without causing any harm to myself.

Parasitic Mind Viruses

Much like a flesh eating virus,
My stress is eating me alive.
Pressure is building up in me,
I feel overwelmed by my life.

Problems sprout like flowers,
Out on the open road I am on.
Too many people are selfish,
They never think of others.

They think only for themselves,
Never about the consequences.
Their problems become my stress,
I internalize situations and ponder.

I feel unable to let these things go,
My mind races with wordly worries.
I am paralyzed by my racing thoughts,
I am overwelmed by my busy life.

I need to stop and think things over,
But everything is moving too fast.
I cannot get a handle on myself,
Yet I feel the need to take on more.

I need to let go and take care of me,
Yet I feel selfish when I try to do that.
Time to let go, step back, and think.
My body will thank me for doing so.

Halloween Giveaway Winner and Some Announcements

The very first giveaway has come to an end. The time has come to pick our winner. I put the names into a hat and then closed my eyes while drawing the name. The winner of the Halloween Giveaway is:

Leah, who writes an excellent blog called Leah The Kind Weight Watcher. Her blog can be seen at the link below:

http://kindlifeofleah.blogspot.com/

The book she has chosen and will receive is called The Vegan Slow-Cooker which is written by Kathy Hester. This book will be sent to her shortly, please email me Leah at punkedpoetess@gmail.com so that I can send you your prize.

Also, the first reader subject poll has closed. A new blog entry based on one of the poll winner entries of post subjects will be posted shortly. The winning subjects are as follows:

Aging
Stress
Relationships
Sexuality

I will deal with each of these areas in my next few posts. Thanks everyone for participating in the giveaway and the blog subject poll. There will be another giveaway sometime in the next few months and more polls to come.