Ending The Addiction Cycle

I just want something to numb the pain,
Yet I don’t want to be addicted again.
So tired of my past hurting me randomly,
Just when I believe I am healed and well.

Someone save me from my inner disease,
Save me from my own messed up mind.
My memories and emotions are troubling,
I need to let them go and move on again.

This time I would like to end the cycle,
This circle of moving on and going back.
I want to stop the inner crying in my head,
I want to stop the tears from leaking out.

I am done feeling sad about my past,
So done feeling guilty and regretful about life.
Time for me to move on ahead into the future,
See what good things I can do in my life.

I need to look at the positives in life,
For the sake of my sanity and well being.
I am done being a victim of my past,
I am ready to live in a better tomorrow.

I can conquer this vicious beast and be free,
I no longer need to cry about what is done.
Now is all about what there is left to do,
And how to do those things without an addiction.

I can conquer this if I trust and reach out to others,
Finally I can admit that I cannot change by myself.
Only a higher power and the help of others will work,
I have tried changing on my own and have failed.

However I can still change with some outside help,
I can be someone to be proud of in my future.
My past does not have to define me forever,
My present and future can redefine who I am.

I am ready to be someone else for the rest of my life,
I am ready to become my true self without apologies.
I surrender my old “happy” self I put up for others,
Today I am a new person and I finally am who I am.

New Year Changes

This year I plan to be less distressed
This year I plan to be less worried
This year I plan to be myself always
This year I plan to live without regrets

I aim to be all I can be
I aim to be more outspoken
I aim to be honest to all
I aim to keep growing up

I resolve to be more healthy
I resolve to be much happier
I resolve to speak up for me
I resolve to love myself more

I will be a better person
I will be a stronger being
I will be myself unabridged
I will be living without fear

My life will be my own responsibility
My life will be a better place to be
My life is one I will live in each day
My life today is in my own hands

Today these changes begin
Today I can control what I do
Today I can be what I want to be
Today is the start of my life.

A Familar Reflection

She is looking in the mirror
And sees something familar.
She sees a face staring back
And wishes she was happy.

Her body is obviously healthy
Fit and wonderfully made;
You can tell she works hard
And cares about many things.

Her mind is always thinking.
She is always pondering,
Wondering how to improve,
Upon what she already does.

Her face shows these thoughts,
Thoughts of others and worries,
That completely consume her mind,
and leave her wondering why.

Why she is not happy with herself.
Why she always wants to do more.
Why she worries for nothing.
She wonders aimlessly without a home.

Her mind is like her own prison,
One that is never truly free,
Never free to be herself
or to have her own thoughts.


She knows that needs to change,
But fear holds her back from this.
The judgement of others rules her,
questions and comments matter.


While she is a working adult,
She still obeys others like a child.
She allows others to matter too much,
She gives her own self no attention.


Now she decides to change,
Since the depression is too great.
That reflection in the mirror,
Is going to be more accurate.


Her insides will be her true self,
Just like her outsides already are.
She is good, right, and beautiful,
And she finally knows that she is okay.