Some Things That Make Me Happy

I know I have been talking about a lot of sad topics lately and I am sorry to sound like such a negative and depressed person. I really am not simply a body filled with gloom and doom. Going to write about a happier topic today. I will call it things that are making me happy in my life. We already know some about what is making me sad, so going to talk about the good things, since life is filled with good and bad things. Here is my list of things that make me happy:

* School, even though it sometimes stresses me out.
* Work, most of the time my job is decent.
* My husband, he listens to what I have to say at my worst. I can barely even do that for myself.
* My fitness pals, you know who you are. I would not be half as motivated to be the best that I can be without all of you.
* My few close friends that I have, I know I often push myself away but I do care about all of you.
* My family, you all drive me insane sometimes but I love you all anyways.
* God, my faith in a higher power sometimes helps me through the hard things in life. Without God, I would never be able to see any of the good hidden underneath the bad and sad things in my life.
* Being able to write, it allows me an outlet that I need in my life. Being a fairly introverted person, I am reluctant to share my thoughts with many people in my life.
* Regular exercise, especially running. Helps me keep some of the depression away as does writing. Hope it keeps working, I never want to be on antidepressants again.

That is the major stuff that keep me going throughout the tumultuous, busy storm that is my life. Despite feeling like I am talking to a brick wall sometimes, I keep plugging away and writing here in hopes that someone enjoys what I have to say. This writing I am doing is therapeutic for me these days. Thank you all for reading and I look forward to keeping up this frequent posting that I am doing. Feels great to write more frequently and to cultivate my writing abilities.

I Can't Help You Unless You Want Help

I see your fragile, small body in front of me,
Beaten down, wrecked, and attacked.
Drugs, sickness, and time have drained you;
I am not sure how much more you can take.

I worry daily about your safety and well being,
I don't want you to die at such a young age.
I am not much younger than you are right now,
And I know that I am not ready to pass away.

I keep trying to save you from your demons,
But I know that I cannot save you from this.
Unless you want to escape your addictions,
You will never get better or obtain your dreams.

There are many hidden talents locked in you,
Deep inside you have skills I can only dream of.
I wish you would use them and not abuse them,
You are wasting what has been given to you.

 It is not too late for you to overcome your vices,
Not too late to turn your life into something great.
You don't have to be the helpless victim anymore,
We are now adults that control our own destiny.

I want you to be able to see what I see in you,
You are someone special to me, an old friend.
You are one of my greatest allies that I have,
I am not ready to let go of what can be for you.

I will never quit fighting for you as long as you live,
Despite these mistakes your life's has not concluded.
Please seek help with dealing with your vicious vices,
I have had to go seek help in my own darkest hours.

Your getting help is not a sign of weakness to me,
Doing this is the ultimate sign of power and strength.
While I cannot force you to get the help you need,
I can support you while you do this for yourself.

I just want you to know that I will always love you,
No matter what happens you are still my friend.
While I am pleading for you to get clean and sober,
I can't help you unless you want to change your life.

Battered Woman

The man loves to dominate
The native woman lets him.
The man strikes the woman.
This woman lets him hurt her.

Over time she is weakened.
His attacks grow more intense.
Her arms are covered in bruises.
His ego is way out of control.

One day, something changes.
Her eyes begin to open wide.
She starts to see a way out.
She sees that she needs to leave.

As soon as she found a safe haven,
She left her husband in the night.
She ran off while he was sleeping.
This way she could protect herself.

Thankfully this woman was not me.
However I knew someone like this.
I am glad she got out of there alive.
Unfortunately not all victims survive.